. ? 100 Things # . real eyes . BlogTree
family tree . chimera
.:| Year of Reading |:.
« back .:. index :: archive .:. next »

20 years together
Christopher G. Loeb
Denyse J. Zane
Married Dec 31, 1998

one year at a time
2000 / 2001 / 2002 / 2003 / 2004 / 2005 / 2006 / 2007 / 2008 / 2009 / 2010 / 2011 / 2012 / 2013 / 2014 / 2015 / 2016 / 2017 / 2018

give me them all


words count : journeys


.com : .nu

     tuesday, february 13, 2018

well, that didn't take long.

life has topsy-turveyed in a numberr of ways, so my sleep is off, which means i'm not exercising or writing (doing the first on very little sleep is unsafe, and the latter just doesn't work). the weather isn't cooperating either, so that's contributing to my genera lack of energy and motivation to do much of anything. the headaches from it don't help either. also, the sleep being off means i'm sleeping in later, losing track of time and going to bed later, perpetuating the problems. the last couple of nights, i've been late enough that i haven't done any reading either.

off track bothers me. even if i get things done, i often don't feel like i've done much. i know that's pretty much me pushing myself more than anything: being at home, it's not like i'm on a real time crunch, and i certainly don't need to get everything in my weekly to do list done in one day. and with the weather, i'm tired even with enough sleep, so most days, getting a couple of small things out of the way is an accomplishment. i just...WANT to get shit done. i just don't have it in me to do much of anything.

i really need this winter overcast crap to move on. more than not getting things done, i just want the tireds to move on, and they won't until i get a day or two of sun to help me recharge. i think it's the drag that bothers me the most: that too tired, too unmotivated, can get out of bed but why bother because i don't feel up to doing anything despite enough sleep feeling. there's just not enough energy in the world to fight it some days, even when i want to.

and i want to! it's not only the usuals on my to do list i want to get done, but i want to bake (been thinking about making my easy cinnamon rolls for DAYS now, and just never feel up to it), i want to workout and write, i just want to do stuff! this slump is exhausting all on its own!

and i suppose all the stuff happening and that we're waiting to happen isn't helping. oldest AND youngest have moved in at least temporarily (froggy is the ultimate boomerang at the moment, lol) and my grandson will be moving back in with us at the end of the month. jewel needs to focus on school and works full time, and she and her man really weren't ready for kids, so having him is increasing her stress levels. she loves him, but the negative impacts are just too much at the moment. so we will have a very crowded apartment for awhile.

yea, saxy's not looking forward to that. heck, i'm having a time of it with so many people in the house. i've gotten used to having my day be mine (and at my age, it should be mine!), and even if they don't interact with you, somehow extra people suck time out of the day and disrupt routines.

i know everything will settle out (and when they leave, it'll be all disrupted again) and this slump will pass, but right now, it's driving me damn crazy. sometimes you just gotta ride the crazy out.


word of the moment: teleran :: a system of aerial navigation in which ground radar scans the area about an airport and the results are televised
so that the pilot of an airplane sees the positions of all craft in the vicinity superimposed upon a map of the area.

currently reading: an earthly crown / bread, wine, chocolate: the slow loss of foods we love / big fit girl: embrace the body you have


on this day in...
2000 * 2001 * 2002 * 2003 * 2004 * 2005 * 2006 * 2007
2008 * 2009 * 2010 * 2011 * 2012 * 2013 * 2014 * 2015 * 2016 * 2017

Since July 9, 2000

"Rhysa and the Dragon" © 2001 - 2018 by Amanda Penrose and created exclusively for Denyse "domynoe" Loeb; All Rights Reserved. Not be duplicated, copied, uploaded to another server, linked to, or used for any other purpose other than viewing while visiting the domynoes network and affiliated domains. In other words, it was made for me, I paid for it, it is mine, hands (and mice) off. This website has been optimized for 800x600 and 1024x768 monitor resolutions.

Graphics, Site Design, Content & Writings © 1999 - 2018 by Denyse "Domynoe" Loeb unless otherwise noted. Except where noted, all graphics and content created/authored by Denyse "domynoe" Loeb. Gifts pages copyrighted by their respective creators and were created exclusively for Domynoe. All rights reserved. Graphics, design, and content writings may not be duplicated, copied, uploaded to another server, or used for any other purpose other than viewing while visiting the domynoes network and all affiliated sites including domynoes.com, domynoes.net, alden.nu, dreamininink.com and dragyncat.com. While linking to individual pages are permitted, links must NOT hide the original URL or domain, may not be framed off the network, or interfere with navigation of the original domain. Graphics and other files may not be linked to outside the pages on which they appear within the network and associated domains. For more information, please visit one or more of the following: what is copyright | 10 myths about copyrights | u.s. copyright faq | u.s. copyright office | r.i.g.h.t.s. | no electronic theft. Special thanks to M. J. Young for help with this copyright notice.

Lady & The Tramp © Disney; Lady & The Tramp coffee mug photo taken and © Denyse J. Loeb 2018